Days 27-31: Auroville to Larkspur, via The Accident
I'm sitting in my room at home in Larkspur California now, which is extremely weird since I had prepared myself for being away from home immersed in Asia for 5 months. I just went through all my pictures for the first time at full-size, and I can say that I miss India dearly now. While I was there I'm sure I appreciated the fact that I was there, but I was also dealing with the constant obstacles, dangers, and annoyances. Now that I'm not there, I miss it all, the good and the bad, because it was all wound up in the total experience. Here, life is just too easy. The toilets have seats, the tapwater is drinkable, I don't have to carry around toilet paper, the mossies (read: australian for mosquito) don't carry malaria, and cars stop when you're crossing the crosswalk.
I'm filled with an overwhelming desire to go straight back to India and relive everything I've been throgh, and more. And I will. One day. Soon.
But for now, I'll recount how this whole thing transpired.
The day I left Auroville I was prepared for a very busy day of many forms of
transportation. I just didn't know it would end with me in the hospital. I started out in a taxi from Auroville to Pondicherry. Although Pondi has a train station, the tracks are closed for maintenance so I had to catch a bus to the nearest rail station in Villupuram 30 km away. As always, the bus station was something of a mystery, and when I boarded a bus and it pulled away from the station I honestly had no idea if my bus would actually take me to this place called Villupuram, which to me was just a dot on my map. When I asked which bus went to Villupuram, the station agent seemed to gesture that "any of those buses over there" would do the trick...just take your pick! On the bus, I ask those Indians seated down "Villupuram?" motioning to the bus we are all in and raising the inflection of my voice in question form. They shake their heads. Or give other negative-looking responses. But the bus driver's response, though also intelligle, seems more upbeat. I decide to give it a shot. What's the worst thing that could happen?
The bus starts out going south. I know this because I purchased a compass before I left. I pictured myself using the compass to navigate through trails in the wilderness, but it has actually proved much more useful in the urban wilderness. I use it in taxis, rickshaws, and buses to ensure that I am being conveyed in the correct direction. Then the bus pulls a u-turn and heads in the opposite direction on the very same road. I never will understand who makes up these bus routes, or if the concept of fixed route even exists in the minds of Indian bus drivers. Anyway, miraculously enough, about an hour later the bus actually makes it to Villupuram. On the train platform I make a lunch out of samosas and other 5 rupee fried goodies.
Because it's only a 2:40 train ride to Chennai (Madras) I made my booking in the cheapest possible class. I thought this was where there are no assigned seats and you just sit wherever there is room. But there were assigned seats. And apparently I didn't have one. I was on some sort of 'waiting list", which made no sense to me as I had made my booking a full week in advance. Oh well, I thought, it was a short ride, I'd just find room in the vestibule. The vestibules were popular spots. Indian men stood in the open doorways, catching the best breezes in the train. Some sat in the doorways. I staked out one such doorway and as soon as it was relinquished I claimed it as my own. Sitting there, my feet dangling out of the train, I knew I was living somewhat dangerously, but I thought it was all in good fun. The view was great (the line runs parallel to the coast), the breezes cool. Who needs a "real seat" when you can sit here? I let mind drift for 10, 20, 30 minutes. Then THUD. "OW!" my mouth emits voluntarily before I realize what has happened. Sharp pain emanating from inside my shoe. Good God, what have I done? I look down and my show's still on so my foot must still be there. In slightly stunned slow motion I withdraw from the door, stand up, and remove my shoe and sock. Perhaps it's just my imagination, perhaps it's just a bruise? Or could my whole foot be smashed to smithereens inside that shoe? I peel back the sock to find no blood, no dislodged bones, but a bulbous purple swelling about 1.5 inches across just above my pink and ring toes. A picture says a thousand words, so here you go:

I don't really know what to make of this. Could it just be a giant bruise? Other people on the train by now have gathered around to stare at this crazy, idiotic white guy and his bulging, purple foot. I'm sorry it happened to my foot, because in India feet are the most unclean part of the body and you're definitely not supposed to flaunt them. Now my seatless situation has improved as a family of Indians gives up their seats to offer me an entire bench so that I can elevate my foot. Someone brings me ice. It's painful but not *that* painful, so I'm thinking I probably haven't broken anything after all. A million thoughts are rushing through my head. What have I done? What does this mean in terms of my trip? I'm supposed to be on a night train tonight to Calcutta, where I'm staying at my friend Ravi's house. Shoot, is this going to make me miss my train? Oh my god, am I going to be able to walk? What if I can't walk? Then I can't do anything? I've based my entire trip on walking. I need to walk. I'm nothing if I can't walk. Why did this have to happen to my foot of all places? Well...maybe it's just a bruise. But that train was going 60, 70 kmph! What on earth did I hit my foot on? How on earth did it happen? It was only protruding a few inches from the train. Doesn't the train have a minimum clearance of a few measly inches?! Someone later explained that it probably hit the platform. As we were an express train, we skipped by several stations without stopping. The platforms are at ground level. The floor of the train must be higher than the platform level, because if they were equal, then it would have been my entire leg that slammed into the platform. But (fortunately, I suppose), it was just my foot. I mean, it all could have been a hell of a lot worse. I happened to be wearing my heavy hiking boots at the time. Had I been wearing my sandals who knows what would have happened. I could have knocked my whole foot off and found myself starring at a severed limb or something ghastly like that. I was lucky.
Yet it still hurt, and it looked pretty damned nasty. At this point I've resigned myself to the assumption that I'll probably be hospitalized for at least a week, maybe two. Which would suck. But I can handle it. I'd still be able to make it to Delhi 3 weeks from now in time to make my flight back to Bangkok, and then on to Vietnam and China as planned. But what if it's more than 2 weeks? I start to imagine all the worst case scenarios. The biggest stretch I can come up with is: I might have to fly home tomorrow! Ha ha. Well, nothing to do but go to the hospital and wait and see.
I'm still cognizant enough to get out my Let's Go and find that there's a highly recommended hospital just a couple km from the train station in Madras. Apollo Hospital. A kind Indian who speaks excellent English, a trained software engineer out of a job, offers to help me to the hospital. He assists me off the train, gets me a porter and a wheelchair, and even accompanies me in the taxi all the way to the hospital.
Then I'm turned over to the care of Apollo Hospital, which I must say, was nothing short of impressive. I've since learned it is one of the best hospitals in all of India. It was just my luck to be injured so nearby. Now I can add to my travel experiences having been an inpatient in an Indian hospital. First of all, nearly everyone who works in the hospital spoke English, which is extremely helpful. (I had several people ask whether or not I speak English, I suppose, because I could have been French or something). India may be a busy place but I was very well looked after in the hospital. I don't know if they paid extra attention to me because I'm white, because I'm a foreigner, or because that's just the way they do things. Service was also very efficient, and waiting time was kept to a minimum.
At first I saw a number of nurses and then men who I assumed were doctors but who I later learned where just collecting information and then passing it on to the doctor, whom I met later. Soon after arriving, they shot me up with pain killers and brought me to the x-ray room. A little while later the x-rays are produced and I see for myself: there is indeed a break. And it's not in the toe; it's in the foot itself. The 5th metatarsal is fractured. That's the bone that connects to the pinky toe, the one that bore the brunt of the force when my foot hit whatever it was it hit.
The second I see this I know the trip is going to change drastically. I've never broken a bone in my body before (I know most kids do playing sports growing up, but I never played many sports) but I know it involves casts and that when you break something in your foot you can't walk. Sure enough, the doctor explains, I'll be on crutches for 6 weeks. In the next 6 weeks, I was supposed to go to North India, trekking in the Himalayas, then meet my parents in Bangkok and travel to Vietnam with them, then go to China. All within the next 6 weeks. I do a quick calculation and realize that there's really only one thing to do and that's to end the trip and go home.
If I can't walk then I can't travel, it's as simple as that. I've survived on crutches for 6 weeks before at school and it was fine because you can go to classes and write papers and keep mobility to a minimum. But travel is all about mobility. Mobility between cities, mobility within cities. Travel and mobility are one in the same. I'm in the process of reading a book called "Wanderlust: A History of Walking" and I've written in my blog about how much of my travel activity is just walking around, and walking for miles and miles each day. Clearly, without a working foot travel was impossible. I needed go home as soon as possible. I figured I'd probably have to wait here for a week or so, until my parents were able to arrange a flight home for me. I explain all this to them that afternoon at the hospital, at about 3am California time. It's Sunday.
Then the doctor springs some new news upon me which suddenly compresses the timeframe in which I must get home. I could just let the fracture heal on its own. But it would heel crooked, which could cause significant pain and problems later on down the road. He recommends surgery to correct the angle of the bone. Now this is one of the best hospitals in India, and I am perfectly confident that they could do this surgery without issue. But if I stay and have the surgery here, that means at least ten days in recuperation before I am able to travel, before I am able to go home. I'd really rather not spend ten days here. Being IN India yet not able to DO ANYTHING would be torture. And besides, if I'm going to be recuperating from surgery, I'd really like to be with my family. So, I can go home for the surgery. But...I have to have the surgery within one week of the accident, so I need to get home asap.
In the mean time, I check into the hospital. They give me a list of room options and prices. They recommend the private room, which runs 3200 Rupees, or $80, enough for a night in a 4 Star hotel. Doesn't seem quite worth it. I say I'll go with the main ward (the dormitory of the hospital) at $20/night. They say I can't stay there because I'm a foreigner, and besides, I wouldn't want to, surrounded by other sick people. I figure they're probably right, and this probably isn't the best time to be cheap and haggle over prices, so I go with the two-person room for $40/night. As it turns out, most of the time I'm there the other bed is empty so it was private room.
At this point I'm relying on my parents to get me home within a week and I'm just looking at the hospital as a place to stay until I can do so. I don't really need hospital care, just a place to sleep. But since I'm in a hospital the staff there treats me as a patient. They want to do everything for me. And they have a whole army of attendants to wait on me and respond to my every need. In the 24 hours I was in the Apollo Hospital, so many people came to see me I lost track of them all. Here's a partial list:
•The emergency room nurses and doctor
•The nurses who worked in my ward in the hospital
•The head nurse (Sister Shanthi)
•The woman in the sari whose job seems to be to assure that everyone is "being taken good care of"
•The dietician, who wanted to know if I wanted Continental, North Indian, or South Indian food, and was surprised and delighted when I chose South Indian
•The hospital's public relations rep, who explained that there was an American journalist in the hospital who might want to interview me and did I grant permission (sure I said, but I hardly thought my story was newsworthy, and she must have agreed because she never did show up)
•The hospital's "communications" rep who deals with foreign patients
•More doctors
•The billing department rep
•"Boys" who wheeled me to the bathroom because the nurses couldn't
•Men who brought me food
•Nurses who brought me pain killers and took my blood pressure and temperature
•An agent from the railway police in the podunk town 60 km south of Madras, where the incident supposedly took place. When I was injured on the train, no employee of the train seemed to be aware, so I was surprised when the railway agent showed up in my hospital room the next day. He had me write a sworn statement in which I absolved the railway of any fault and claimed responsibilty and fault for the accident, all of which he dictated to me in rather bizarre English.
The whole experience was not bad at all. The nurses (they are all called "sister") were all very attractive and friendly. I chatted with them and found out they are from Kerala, the state to the west which is known for having the highest education rates and best record of womens rights in all of India. I really felt quite capable of doing most things that needed to be done, but the nurses insisted on doing everything for me, so I let them. They wore those traditional nurse outfits, with white blouses, little blue aprons, and little white hats on the back of their heads.
The food was quite good, especially considering that it's hospital food. Breakfast was banana, yogurt, cornflakes, milk, toast, jelly, and of course, chai. (In fact chai was available throughout the day). Lunch was a stack of metal bowls containing rice, yogurt, and a variety of vegetables and curries.
I even had my own TV. I caught up on the news courtesy of the BBC and then watched Indian music videos and commercials. It seems like every single commercial on Indian TV has a musical song-and-dance routine regardless of how un-jingleable the product may be. I watched a 2-minute ad complete with a talk show host, Bollywood actress spokesperson, and singing and dancing all for....electrical tape!
The next morning, just 18 hours after the accident, I spoke to my parents again and learnt they had already managed to find me a flight home - leaving Madras that very evening! How lucky was I? How wonderful are my parents?!
I think the hospital was sad to see me go. They made it kind of difficult to let me go. I had to wait for all sorts of things to wrap themselves up, but finally, after getting the cast replaced, getting crutches, getting more meds, getting discharged, and paying the bill (everything cost a mere $144!), I was ready to leave. I hobbled out of there on my new crutches and, ready for one last "Indian experience" hailed a rickshaw. 200 rupees to the airport. He was overcharging me of course, but at this point I didn't care. We hurdled through rush hour traffic as I gained my first glimpses of a city I hadn't actually seen up until now. As always when I ride a rickshaw, I risked getting into a traffic accident and being sent back to the hospital. But, alas, I arrived at Chennai International Airport unscathed. It's a rather bleak airport for a city of 10 million people or whatever Chennai has. But I'm not complaining.
A group of young boys - all cricket players in their team uniforms - were on their way to Sri Lanka. I observed in the queue for my flight probably the ugliest man I have ever seen. He was wearing german shorts, a hawaiin shirt, a fanny pack and his skin was covered in pockmarks, his moustache was painted on, and worst of all, his balding, frizzy hair was dyed purple!
At the security inspection a turbaned gentleman (I'm guessing Pakistani but I can't tell for sure) was having a major argument with the Indian security inspectors and airport officials that went on for several minutes and escalated into a violent shouting match that gained the rapt attention of most of us in the gate waiting area. I don't think I've seen anything like that in an airport before. I don't know what happened. Maybe he felt he had been unfairly "targeted" because of his religion or nationality.
Sitting in the waiting area, something suddenly dawned on me. I was sitting across from an East Asian businessman and I realized that during all my time in India I don't think I ever saw one Indian in a business suit. That's not to say Indians don't wear business suits. But I must not have been in the right place at the right time.
Another man I met in the airport was a fellow Amerian who happens to be from Marin County just like me. He too was flying to SFO, but he was flying westward and I was flying eastward. In a sort of paradoxical way, we would both reach SFO at approximately the same time the next day. Although I would gain a whole day by crossing the Int'l Date Line, I would also lose time by moving east, whereas he would gain time by flying west. He told me how he had been to see some enlightened Indian philospher who had shown him how all the stars are lining up with the pyramids all over the world. Yes, he explained, there are pyramids all over the world. In Illinois there are pyramids made out of earth taller than the pyramids at Giza, according to this man. Yes, and Stonehenge and Easter Island, too. They're all lining up with the stars, all as predicted in the ancient Mayan Prophecy (he then read my fortune with his Mayan calendar). He was dead serious. I wished I would introduce this guy to Jay, the rainbow person.
I wonder if anyone has written a treatise on liminality in airports, because airports really are like a liminal state between very starkly different worlds. Well, some airports are. Others, like Chennai airport, are more reflective of the countries they are in.
The second I stepped into the plane it was like entering a different universe. I passed from the run-down airport operated and mostly populated entirely by Indians into a shiny new 777 filled with Singaporeans and it was as if I was already in Singapore. Now a lot of people already must know about Singapore Airlines because it is consistently rated as best airline in the world. It's it not hard to see why. The service I received in coach puts every US-based airline to absolute shame. The stewardesses all look like models. They are gorgeous young Singaporean, Chinese, and Malaysian women known collectively as the "Singapore Girls" and all wearing identical 60s-chic form-fitting patterned purple blouse and sarong. They all speak flawless English and carry themselves with poise and grace (the result of "deportment studies" at Singapore's Singapore Girl academy).
Little perks abound. Hot washcloths. Amenity kits even for economy class passengers. A complete drinks list. Singapore slings mixed on the spot. Terrific food, with menus printed for each flight offering a choice between Indian and Continental. More meals than we need. And snacks in between. And Magnum ice cream bars from England.
The in-flight entertainment system, which is unparalleled:
100s of movies, TV shows, video games, puzzles, live news updates, trivia games, language tutorials, and travel guides
All entirely interactive and on-demand
I should have used the time to sleep but I am so behind on my movie-watching, and they had so many movies I wanted to see.
I saw:
Goodnight and Good Luck
North Country
Walk The Line
Capote
Shopgirl
Harry Potter 3
as well as Fraiser, Simpsons, King of the Hill, and Family Guy, and several games of Solitaire.
There were three flights in all. India to Singapore. Singapore to Seoul. Seoul to San Francisco. In each city, an army of assistants was waiting at the jetway to escort me and all the old ladies in wheelchairs to the next gate. Just over 24 hours in total.
So I got home to a rainy, dreary San Francisco Bay Area. Apparently, it has been raining nearly nonstop here ever since I left. When I was in the sweltering Indian heat I often wished for California weather, but not like this.
Turn on the TV. Americans are worried about their typical American problems. America already seems such a small place. Oh look, there's an article in the paper about an Indian actress (Sheetel Sheth) complaining about looking for work in Hollywood. Casting agents can never seem to figure out what ehtnicity she is. If she says she's Indian, they ask "what tribe?". She's lost parts to African Americans and Latinas for "not being ethnic enough". Hollywood should get its act together. I saw her in Looking For Comedy In The Muslim World and she was great. Indian actresses are a gorgeous lot. And according to what I've seen in India, most of them would love to make it in Hollywood. Except for the fact that most refuse to cross certain boundaries on screen (nevermind sex scenes, the hot issue in Bollywood today is which actresses are willing to do "kissing scenes"; most are not).
Went to Kaiser San Rafael today for my belated surgery, 3 days after the accident. To my surprise the orthopedic surgeon took one glance at the x-ray and proclaimed that the thought of operating on my foot was absurd. It's only bent 5 degrees. He wouldn't dream of operating on anything less than a 40 degree bend. Surgery would only complicate things, make the healing process take longer, and post unnecessary risks (foot surgery is always an ordeal). So, the diagnosis: simply wear a special rigid shoe, and let it heal on its own. No surgery. Not even a cast. This is all great news. It's interesting how different the two doctors' opinions were. The American doc suggested maybe the Indian doc just saw more money in the surgery. But my mom and I aren't that pessimistic. She says it's just a different of philosophy and approach. The Indian doc didn't tell me I HAD to operate, he just said it was an option, and he'd recommend it. In any case, I prefer the non-op recommendation, and coming home was worth it just for that second opinion.
I'm lucky to have parents who care about me so much and were able to get me on a flight home a mere 33 hours after the accident (and one the world's best airline). That's, frankly, amazing.
So now I get to sit around the house for the next six weeks reading, surfing the net, watching dvds. And making a good, informed decision on grad school. I was leaning towards LSE when I left, but since then I've gotten into planning school at Berkeley, and been offered a terrific aide package from Penn State (full tuition + living expenses + RA or teaching post and stipend), so I've got some more serious thinking to do.
I still have a lot of decompresion of thoughts swirling around my head for the last month, so don't abandon my blog yet (if you haven't already). I'll be writing more. And then, if all goes well with the foot, I'll be back on the road in May, spending about two months in China. So you see, all is not lost. I'm fine. It sucks that I had to leave early, but everything's gonna be alright.

































